dichotomy in me

21 Jul

….and it comes out of nowhere.

that hollow, heavy, cloudy, lack of everything feeling.  

it consumes me.  it shuts me down.

the bleakness encompasses my entire being.  makes me doubt.  makes me forget who i am.

i know, however, that this feeling wont last forever.  it never does.  though it threatens to.

but then, when i’ve almost surrendered, something magical happens.  

a spark

a beam

and then….

the light comes pouring back in.  and my heart and soul fill with it.

and i am grateful

and i am joyful

and i believe

and i remember

i’m so thankful for the relief.  the light.  

so thankful that i thank the dark.  

thank you empty, heavy, cloudy, lack of everything feeling

for without you, 

i wouldnt know the joy

of being blinded by love

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One Response to “dichotomy in me”

  1. Jeremy January 20, 2014 at 7:30 am #

    Beautiful, Jennifer…

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